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I took several Happiness inventory tests. They mostly told me that I am profoundly depressed and need to seek professional help. The heart-stabbing pain left for a while. It came back this weekend. It was nice while it was gone.

My thoughts are all disjointed.

I start a new job in a couple of weeks. I didn't get the one I wanted...I suppose I haven't proven myself yet. I don't know if I ever will.

Had a migraine today.

Was suppose to shoot a birthday party on Saturday. I lied via text and made up a fender bender and then turned my phone off so I wouldn't have to deal with it.

I am not reliable.

Tonight, my Mom said she wished she'd just die. She's been saying that for exactly thirty years - to me at least... she's wanted to die a lot longer than that. I do too.